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Elizabeth ([personal profile] tearmeanewone) wrote2013-05-09 09:58 pm
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rendez-vous + APPOINTMENT POST

[This is an appointment post for Elizabeth at [community profile] luceti.]

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voidseeing: (Oath sign)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-11 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
[That... that is a feeling Gai can understand. It was why he chose to die the way he did, because it was a CHOICE rather than something forced upon him, the one last bit of control he had over his own life before the virus robbed even that from him.

He understands now. At their hearts, the two of them really aren't so different after all.

The hand she moved to her neck lingers there for a moment before sliding upwards to cup her chin, and then before he's even thinking about it, he's leaning in to kiss her again, only this time it's not quite as chaste as their first kiss on the beach had been...]
voidseeing: (Strength)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-11 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
[If Elizabeth's emotions are running high, Gai's are off the charts, and it terrifies him. The fact that he's feeling what he's pretty sure he is, much less this intensely, is brand new and terrifying and it makes him feel exposed and vulnerable, two things he's always hated. He's spent so many years perfecting the art of being able to switch off his emotions when needed that the fact that he can't do so right now is making him feel... cornered, almost.

He's not sure whether he's scared of himself, scared of her, or scared of this, whatever this is. Respect, fear, hatred, admiration... those are all responses he understands. Those are the things people usually feel towards him, and he's learned to expect those. But this is something completely new, something he's never experienced before, and thus his logical mind is working overtime trying to figure out just how to process what he's feeling right now.

The break in the kiss is both a relief and a fresh source of uncertainty. Oh god, he'd kissed her, hadn't he? But she hadn't pushed him away, had kissed BACK, so at least he hadn't done something horribly wrong... yet. He allows himself a moment to collect his thoughts before he responds to her.]


I've been fighting on battlefields since I was seven years old. I grew up as a soldier-- I'd killed more people than I could even count by the time I was ten. I can kill a grown man with my bare hands, I know how to use dozens of different firearms, and I can sneak up behind you and knife you in the back before you even know I'm there.

[Now he pulls away just enough to look down at her.]

Someone I know back in my world had the ability to reach into a person and draw out their heart as a physical object. That object represents that person's personality, for better or for worse, and there was no way to fake it or influence it to be what you want.

[He pauses.]

Mine was a rifle.
voidseeing: (No I don't want to see you do that again)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-11 08:50 am (UTC)(link)
[Though he's trying his best to keep his face neutral, his heartbeat will give him away with how hard it's beating right now. But he doesn't pull away, even though he could, even though every instinct is screaming at him to do so.]

No. I would never do that to you.

[But there's still a part of him that fears that he might. If she were ever to awaken him when he wasn't expecting it, what would he do? How would he react? With instinct, or with logic?]
voidseeing: (Vaguely intrigued)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-11 09:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Elizabeth's little smile is enough to get Gai to try for one of his own, though he still feels uncertain about this whole situation. He's not used to feeling uncertain about anything, and it's still an odd sensation to stomach.]

A person's heart can change its shape as the person themselves changes. It's possible that what he pulled out one day would be something completely different in a few months if they changed that much during that time. The bond between him and that person, how the person themselves feels... all of those things can affect it. But mine never changed, not since I first realized that I was able to see what it was.
Edited 2013-07-11 09:14 (UTC)
voidseeing: (Nowhere to run)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-11 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know what I wanted.

[It had been exactly what was needed at the time, but...

"Gai. Why do you think my Void is a sword?"

"A sword that cuts whatever it touches is something that's incompatible with humans. It's probably so that you wouldn't forget what you are."


He'd said those words so coldly, yet he himself had a Void that was every bit as dangerous as hers. He knew what it said about him, and though he'd accepted it, it still troubled him to think about too deeply.]
voidseeing: (Ready steady go)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-12 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
I can't escape what I am.

[The crystals growing on his body are proof of that much. The Malnosso may have brought him here after death, but they didn't change what he was. Honestly, he doesn't have much faith in them doing so - getting rid of the virus - even if he dies here.]

I'm not sure I can change it, either. I only know how to live one way. Even if I could choose... I wouldn't know how.

[And there it is, the ugly truth. He's no leader or soldier here, yet his routine still consists of constant training because that's all he knows. He doesn't know what to do with himself otherwise.]
voidseeing: (And the dreams in which I'm dying)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-12 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
[When Elizabeth squeezes his hand, Gai squeezes it right back. It's rare for him to feel this inarticulate, to not know what to say or how to respond, but right now he's finding himself at something of a loss for words. Certainly he doesn't know anything about actual dating either. Flirting, yes. Being charming, yes. Even seducing-- he can do all of that with ease. It's the actual emotional aspect of a relationship that baffles him because emotions in general are still a mystery to him.

It's less that he thinks it would be terrible and more that he's afraid that he couldn't be what she wants... what she DESERVES.]


Are you sure?

[It's one last chance for her to back out if she wants.]
voidseeing: (Okay sometimes you aren't stupid)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-12 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
[The laugh that escapes him now is breathless, half a laugh and half simply a sigh of relief. He still thinks she's being foolish, and probably will for a long time to come, but if she's making this choice of her own volition, then he owes it to her to at least give it a try.

She wants him. She actually wants him. Not the leader of Funeral Parlor, but just Gai, Gai and all of the burdens he carries, all of the terrible things he's done. No one has ever wanted that before. It's strange and new and frightening, but right now he can't think of anyone else he'd rather be sharing it with.]


Don't say I didn't warn you.

[And then he leans down again, though the kiss this time is far softer and less urgent-- a proper kiss.]
voidseeing: (Can't touch this)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-12 09:11 am (UTC)(link)
[This time his laugh is closer to its usual tone, albeit still slightly breathless thanks to the kiss-- not that he's complaining about that at all. When they break apart, he just leans his forehead against hers, not wanting to pull away too far.]

Unfortunately, that's something I've never been very good at. I'm used to giving the orders, not taking them.
voidseeing: (Stray)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-12 09:35 am (UTC)(link)
That all depends on the situation.

[And, because he's terrible and wants to get her back for knocking him off-kilter emotionally like that, he tilts his head to the side just enough so that he can breathe against her ear:]

Sometimes taking orders can be a great deal of fun.
voidseeing: (Headstrong)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-12 09:54 am (UTC)(link)
[He takes a step back, grinning. Yeah, he kind of deserved that, and he doesn't really care.]

No, it would be far more entertaining if you started reading them in the bar, preferably after a drink or two. I'd be interested in hearing what else you thought was worthy of taking notes on.
voidseeing: (Are the best I've ever had)

[personal profile] voidseeing 2013-07-12 10:03 am (UTC)(link)
Oh? And how do you propose I test that?

[He could easily have made a very dirty implication here, but he's more interested in seeing if SHE'S going to make the implication instead. Two can play at this game, oh yes.

Good thing that following a little behind her means that she can't see the smirk on his face right now.]

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