tearmeanewone | rendez-vous + APPOINTMENT POST

[It feels like it's been ages since Gai touched her there, but it's probably just the clothing that's making her sensitive to all of Gai's touches. But when Gai rubs her clit she pushes into his hand and lets out an ecstatic gasp and moan.]

So you want me to beg? [She turns her head and nips at Gai's neck.] Or do you want to watch me take care of my own needs?

[Thrilled by her response, even if it was predictable, Gai lets his hand linger just above the important parts, his other still-occupied hand giving her breast another squeeze. The nips to his neck draw a pleased rumble as he tilts his own head a bit to give her better access there.]

Whatever you want most-- I won't complain either way.

Mm... that's a hard decision. [Instant pleasure, or Gai...]

Please... [She whispers against his neck.] Put your fingers inside of me, I've needed you ever since I came back into this room dressed like this.

[Gai can't suppress the pleased shudder that races up his spine at those words; he arches his back forward so that he can press his arousal against her and let her know just how much he needs her too. She isn't the only one who has been getting turned on by all of this.]

Not as hard as this.

[... okay, so he couldn't help that one, really.]

How many do you want?

[It's a low purr right in her ear, which probably counts as cheating. He doesn't really care.]

[Gai's joke, lame as it is, does make her laugh. It is nice, though, to feel Gai against her back. Deliciously aroused, just like she is. She curls and arches at Gai's lips against her ear, and Elizabeth thinks for a moment that she might just faint.]

Two...

Your wish is my command.

[He doesn't even need her to touch him in return, not when she's rewarding him with such lovely reactions to what he's doing. Those are doing an excellent job of stoking the fire of arousal within him, though he can't stop himself from giving a brief, mischievous grind against her first.

That's all he'll allow himself before he moves his fingers back down and starts to press two of them into her. Even though they slide easily, he keeps his movements slow and controlled, wanting her to be able to enjoy every bit of the sensation as he pushes them in ever-so-slowly.]

[The grind is a surprise, and while she laughs a little when she realizes what he's doing, Elizabeth almost asks if he wouldn't prefer to just get to the part that's good for both of them--]

[And then he starts sliding his fingers into her, and that thought goes right out the window. Elizabeth relaxes onto his fingers, pressing slightly and rocking just a little to get the full sensation.]

[If she were to ask, he would tell her that this part is every bit as good for him. Since she doesn't, however, he'll just have to content himself with pushing his fingers up into her when she rocks down, mimicking the actions he'd be making if he had that certain other part of his anatomy inside of her instead.]

How does this feel?

[They both seem to enjoy hearing the other one describe things like this, it seems.]

[When Gai asks, Elizabeth manages to push out a little amused chuckle. Yes, it appeared that they both liked to hear the other talk about what they were feeling and thinking. It was probably rare, definitely good.]

I could be fuller. But there's something about feeling your fingers inside of me that's just... [She rocks her hips again and hums.] I wish I could see us. I've never felt this... this warm or erotic before.

[Elizabeth's words switch on a little lightbulb in Gai's head. He'd never really thought of it before, but now that she mentions it...]

Do you want to get a mirror? I've got a small one we could prop up across from us if you really want to see things for yourself.

[It's a decidedly erotic thought-- both being able to watch what he's doing with his fingers and having Elizabeth be able to see it too.]

[A mirror... that would solve things, wouldn't it? Elizabeth considers it for a moment, then shakes her head.]

That would mean you'd have to leave the bed again. And I'm trying to keep that to a minimum. [She grins and nuzzles Gai's jaw.] Next time I dress like this for you.

[Because there will be a next time.]

It would only be for a minute.

[But he's not going to push it if she doesn't want him to move. After all, he likes his fingers right where they are, too. So much so, in fact, that he'll give them another gentle thrust within her, wanting to draw more sounds out of her.]

I need to get another condom out of the nightstand anyway.

[Elizabeth obliges him with another pleasured gasp and moan, but it quickly turns into a sad little whine.] Taking the risk is starting to sound like a much better option.

No.

[Whoops. That might've come out a little harsher than he'd intended...]

I don't want to risk becoming a parent yet. I'm nowhere near ready, and I don't think you are either. And I don't know whether the clinic has emergency contraception just in case.

[Whoops. Elizabeth hadn't meant to prompt a serious discussion--the suggestion wasn't even a serious one.]

I know, I wasn't... [Maybe she had gotten a little too carried away. The moment had felt very good though, and now she feels a little silly. And there's some shame creeping in too--there could be such a thing as wanting it too much, maybe.]

[Elizabeth discretely rests her hands over her chest, trying to resettle herself back into the corset. She doesn't know what to do about Gai's hand, though...]

[It isn't that Gai is mad, or even upset with her over this. If anything, he's scared of the possibility of becoming a father, since he knows that he wouldn't be a good one yet, and his greatest fear is being a father like Keido was-- which is to say, not a father at all.

He hadn't meant to upset her, not in the slightest.]

No, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you.

No, I shouldn't have gotten so carried away. [Maybe this was why priests and nuns were forbidden from having sex. It caused distraction, mistakes. A moment ago she had felt beautiful and powerful, but now that she realizes she might have said anything to keep her pleasure she feels naked and cheap.]

Maybe this... all of this corset business... was too much for me. [She wraps her arms around her shoulders.] Maybe it felt too good for me to really handle.

Elizabeth.

[Now he does slide his fingers out of her, but it's so that he can place his hands on her shoulders and turn her towards him in order to look her in the eyes. He wants her to see that he isn't angry, that he doesn't blame her at all for this little disruption, and that his fear is his and his alone to deal with and ultimately conquer.]

It wasn't anything you did. I was the one who overreacted to what you said because I'm afraid of becoming someone like my father. You have no idea how much I want to have children with you someday, but I don't want it until I can be certain that I will never be like him.

But you won't be like him. [Elizabeth is happy to face Gai again--she doesn't think he's angry at all, or that he's placing any blame on her. Just like the night Gai came back to Luceti, Elizabeth believes that she was the one to start this. So she wants to fix it.]

[She reaches up to stroke his cheek again.] Mostly because I've seen you separate the leader side of you from what you show me. ...But also because I'm not having children with you if you ever talk about trying anything scientific with them whatsoever. [She smiles and lightly taps Gai's cheek in a play-slap. Then she looks down at herself, tries to tuck in again.]

I shouldn't have joked about it, though. Columbia was... very strict in its views on everything. Radical, even. [She knows that word as it applies to religion now. When she had realized that other religions besides that of Columbia existed, she had been shocked and fascinated. And then, of course, she had found the counter opinions on everything...]

I was taught, when I was younger, that I was never to 'join' with any man before I married him. 'But who am I supposed to marry? I've seen no other man here before,' I thought. I had my dreams, of course. That I would meet someone, and we would fall in love and be married. And then join with him to have children--and only to conceive children.

This has been absolutely nothing like what I had imagined, and I love that it's nothing like what I imagined because it's incredibly real. But sometimes I'm afraid that I am indecent, and spoiled, and a whore. Because I love how this feels...

[That can't be right, though. How could something that made her feel so loved be bad? Elizabeth looks up at Gai, still worried and confused.] Tell me what it's like where you come from. Is this wrong where you're from too?

Not at all.

[Gai lifts his clean hand to stroke her cheek in return, grinning crookedly at that playful fake-slap she gives him. He knows she's joking, and it's because of that that he doesn't mind the words one bit, even though they would induce rage in him were they to come from anyone else under any other circumstances.]

There are some old-fashioned people who still disapprove of sex outside of marriage, but for the most part, it's a common and accepted thing now. People finally figured out that it's stupid to wait until you're married to find out whether or not you're sexually compatible with someone else. And what's more, they realized that nothing bad is going to happen if you do sleep with someone you aren't married to. Plenty of people even get married and never have children at all.

Things have changed a lot in more than a century. There's nothing indecent or spoiled about wanting to be intimate with someone you love even if you aren't married to them. There isn't even anything wrong with wanting sex just for fun either. What you do in the bedroom is no one's business but your own and the person you're sleeping with.

You can have as much or as little sex as you want where I come from. There might be some people who criticize, but they aren't worth paying any attention to. You do what feels right for you and what you're comfortable with.

[Now his smile becomes a little more genuine.]

Besides, I thought I already promised to marry you one day.

You did... [Elizabeth smiles, blushes, and leans into Gai's hand.] Though there are some people who might argue that any man who wants the intimacy now and the commitment later doesn't have the truest intentions. But I reckon that if that was your aim, you would have stopped seeing me a while ago.

[Something occurs to her and she frowns slightly.] What do you suppose being married will do to how we are now? Are we going to be more serious? I always figured that if I were to be married, I'd be much older than I am now, and probably more serious about life in general. And Jack and Eugene told me this horrible thing about how in their world, marriage is like signing some kind of contract, and it's a legal agreement between two people. It sounds like two people can't just be married because they love one another, they have to think about money and, and laws and bizarre things that have nothing to do with love. That isn't going to be us, is it?

[Is that what she's worried about? For a moment, Gai almost wants to let out a little laugh at what seems to him to be such a... well, an innocent thing to be worrying about. Innocent, yet understandable, and that's why he doesn't laugh or smile or anything of the sort.]

Not if you don't want it to be. Marriage is whatever you make of it. Some people want it to be serious, some don't. And it doesn't mean that anything has to change between us unless you want it to.

[He strokes his thumb lightly over her cheek.]

The laws and money are just formalities that have to be dealt with-- at its heart, it's still about making a commitment to the person you love and making it official. Things haven't changed that much between our times.

[Mentally he makes a note to have A Talk with Jack and Eugene about giving Elizabeth a rather depressing view of marriage in general. Okay, so they may have been trying to dissuade her from leaping into things, but still. Did they really have to bring all of the legal nonsense into it?]

For me, it's proof that I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

Gai... you're always saying that. [Elizabeth frowns and leans harder into Gai's hand.] What about what you want? I want to give you what you want too.

I only want to give myself entirely to you. I want to be sure you never feel alone ever again, until the day I die. [She smiles wistfully.] And after that, our children will be there for you.

[This time Gai does laugh a little, though it's fond and not at all malicious.]

This is what I want more than anything else. I don't care what world we end up in as long as I can be with you and whatever children we have in the future. I'm just happy being by your side, and I'll never be alone now that you're here.

[Elizabeth makes an annoyed hmph and leans the full weight of her head into Gai's hand.] It's far too easy, you have to come up with something that's more complicated. Otherwise I'm going to feel like the lazy half.

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