rendez-vous + APPOINTMENT POST

[tearmeanewone]

[This is an appointment post for Elizabeth at luceti.]

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[voice-private, October 15th]

[iwannabethegai]

Nothing good ever comes out of talking with me anyways.

All this time, I've known that better than anyone else. Maybe I was just trying to fool myself into thinking that I could be better. There's no point in me trying to be stronger if all I do is be a huge bother to everyone. [His low self esteem is showing.]

That's the best thing you can do. Just pretend we never spoke and I'll leave you alone too.

[voice-private, October 15th]

[tearmeanewone]

You're not keeping to the topic we're talking about, Shu. I'm going to narrow this down to one question:

Can you carry on an argument with Gai without bringing me into it? Yes or no.

[voice-private, October 15th]

[iwannabethegai]

Ask Gai that, not me.

I barely know you. What do you want me to say?

[How is he supposed to answer this honestly? Shu's never been particularly good at being social so it's to be expected.]

[voice-private, October 15th]

[tearmeanewone]

Exactly-- you barely know me. You barely know what Gai's and my relationship is like. Just earlier, you were saying that you weren't going to talk about things I wouldn't understand. Maybe you should turn that around. Not talk about things you don't understand.

Gai already knows enough not to use my feelings for him to win points with anyone. What we have is too precious to be treated like some cheap thing.

If you had automatic contempt for strangers Shu, I would expect you to treat me like I'm cheap and expendable. But Gai gave me the impression you were above that. Was he wrong?

[voice-private, October 15th]

[iwannabethegai]

He doesn't know what I've been through.

Gai's dead and there's no way he could've known. I'm not behaving this way because I want to.

I'm surprised he gave you that impression after how he's treated me. You people just can't keep assuming you'll always know how things will be.

[voice-private, October 15th]

[tearmeanewone]

Really? You aren't? I must have missed obvious gun to your head, forcing you to act a certain way.

[Don't tell the girl, locked in a tower for almost all of her life, that acting out is inevitable because bad things happen.]

[voice-private, October 15th]

[iwannabethegai]

I can see how you're similar to Gai now. You're both harsh and you always assume that having attitude is the best response.

You restore to using harmful responses, just to make yourselves feel better in the end.

In that regard, you're just like Gai. [Shu doesn't really understand it completely, but that's how he sees things from Elizabeth's response.]

[voice-private, October 15th]

[tearmeanewone]

[Guess it runs in the family.]

I think you're someone who needs harsh truth instead of someone who pats your head and says you're right about everything. I'm not going through life to please everyone, certainly not you. So I'm not going to apologize for my 'harmful responses' that go against what you want to hear.

...If I had to choose between being like you, and being like Gai, I would choose him in a heartbeat. I've had enough of fantasy worlds where everyone tells me everything is fine and nothing has to change ever.

[voice-private, October 15th]

[iwannabethegai]

You don't even get why it hurts so much, do you?

When Gai was a live he pointed a gun at my head. I killed a friend of mine and I was in shock. He didn't seem to understand that and he even fired a bullet. [Shu kills a lot of his friends, huh? Elizabeth might be noticing that.]

That's your decision. It still won't change how I see things.